Monday, April 27, 2015

An incredible bedtime with the twins...

I've had a hard day. I've struggled with wondering why we have 3 healthy boys. It is the anniversary of a childhood friend losing her two boys in a tornado. Her strength truly amazes me. A close friend was admitted to the hospital at 21 weeks with her baby boy. Praying to make it to viability. I encouraged her to go for that last pregnancy that would be normal after a multiple pregnancy that was anything but. A woman I met through Itworks lost one of her twin boys at 17 months old to SIDS. They're 3rd birthday was this weekend and she needed prayers. Prayers for peace. Prayers to survive the day. Ashley & Thomas are preparing for the one year of precious Miloh being in heaven. Why do I have my boys here with me? I struggle with this and today more so than other days. Today I voiced this to Brandon as I cried this evening. I just don't understand. 

We put the twins to bed together like we always do. Then an hour later I heard tears. So I went in & Drake was crying. Hunt is apologizing. Apparently he poked his brother in the eye. After calming Drake, Hunt tells me he just wants to sleep alone. This is night 2 of him telling me this. Drake is begging to sleep with him saying he can't see out of his hurt eye and needs Hunter. Hunt finally with tears says Drake can sleep with him, but why doesn't momma kiss his eye to make it better? It makes his boo boos better. So Drake agrees, I can kiss it. Looks at Hunt and tells him okay Hunt you can sleep alone. Thank you Drake comes from Hunt's sweet voice. 

Hunt jumps to the bottom bunk and I lay with Drake playing with his hair just looking at him.  I tell him I miss holding him when he was a baby. He tells me I loved to hold daddy when I was a baby. Hunt chimes in and asks if daddy held him too. I tell them yes we alternated which baby we held. 

Then comes the moment that changed me forever.

"Do you love having 3 boys momma?" - Drake

"More than anything in the world I love having 3 baby boys!" - Me

"You are gonna have lots of big boys one day momma, but we will always love you" - Drake

"I'm gonna love you no matter how big you are & you'll always be my babies!" -Me

"Why are you crying momma?" - Drake 

"I'm just so blessed to have you 3 boys! Do you know how blessed we are?" - me

"Yes momma! You love calling me Drake, & Hunter Hunter & Luke Luke?" - Drake

"Yes I do love my babies names! Daddy & I picked them!" - Me

"I'm named after my daddy, I'm DrakeBrandon  Olive." - Drake

"I'm named after my PawPaw, I'm Hunter Paul Olive. What is Luke's actual name?"  - Hunter

"Luke's name is Luke Arthur Olive after grandpa!" - me

"Like Aiden Arthur Kelly!" - Drake

"yes, grandpas name is Arthur Kelly"- me

"He is grandpa Arthur?"- Drake

"Yes his name is Arthur & he is your Grandpa!" - me

Then we did our normal goodnight kisses & hugs. Prayers before I walked out. 

I swear God spoke through my child tonight. It was incredible. I came out of their room and just cried and cried to Brandon. I cannot believe he really asked me if I loved having 3 boys and told me I would one day have lots of big boys and they would always love me!! 

My heart is aching tonight for the people I love. Please know, I don't take a moment for granted with my babies. I pray for your peace. I pray for your comfort. With all my love !

Thursday, April 23, 2015

Dear Luke ...

Hey there sweet boy!

I cannot believe you are 2! You are such an independent little boy. You love to walk around. You like freedom to do what you want. You love walking around with Grandpa because he lets you go wherever you want to and follows close by. You are a mommy's boy. You love to sit and snuggle with me. You weren't always like this, but since I started staying home in December you love to cuddle up and give hugs and kisses. You completed me sweet boy. I had an empty spot in my heart I did not even know about until you came along. You changed everything. You are my baby, you always will be. You are a precious little boy that melts anyone you meet. You walk in and take over a room. Not shy in any way. You hate strollers and being confined! You love to tell me "I'M DONE!" when you want out of your high chair. You are an incredible little boy. You are going to do amazing things in this world, I know it. You have a sparkle in your eye that is just different. Your smile is off the charts handsome. You love to dance with mommy. You are ticklish under your chin, and it is my favorite little giggle. You adore your daddy and get so excited when you hear him at the door at the end of the day. You love to wrestle with your brothers or snuggle up to watch a movie. You will play anything with them or nothing with them. You never feel like you have to do what they are doing. It is pretty incredible. You can be VERY LOUD, you get it from me baby. The twins hate it because they do not like loud noises. This is when y'all fight most often! I hope you always keep that independence. I hope you always love snuggling with me. I hope you keep some of your stubbornness. I hope you always stay this close with your brothers. I love you. More than you will ever know. I love being your mommy. I love hearing you say mommy. I know this year will be even more amazing since I am now home with you!! 

Love you,


Luke Arthur is 2!

Luke is 2 years old. I cannot even believe it has happened that fast.

He is one strong willed little boy. Brandon says he is independent. So true. He is stubborn but oh so sweet. 

He kisses you when you are hurt and says, all better?

He loves to eat. Loves his snacks. Fruit snacks, scooby snacks, fruit roll up, goldfish, yogurt, peaches, waffles, anything.

He loves his night-night. 

He asks for a drink often.

Luke loves to snuggle me when he wakes up or is going to sleep. 

He adores his brothers and playing with them. 

He loves to watch tv and movies. Lays on his tummy with his night night and watches them. He will disappear for an hour doing this in the twins' room. 

He LOVES sleep. He will sleep until 10 am then nap around 1 for another 2 hours. Goes to bed anywhere from 7 to 9. 

He has not showed interest in potty training yet.

He loves to shake his booty and says it so precious!

Luke loves shoes and going bye bye. 

He loves Frozen & Toy Story! Super Why is his favorite cartoon! 

He sleeps with the whole cast of Toy Story in his crib with him.

His vocabulary has exploded in the past 4 months! He is also much more loving! Gives hugs and kisses all the time!

He has had some accidents. More than his brothers combined. He busted his chin in the bath. His forehead on Nadi's driveway. That one was BAD and very recent. Still healing. He is a trooper and gets over falls very quickly. 

He is in size 5 Pampers Cruisers. 2T clothes for the most part! Some 3T. 

He has HUGE feet. Same size as Hunt. Normally an 8 or a 9. 

He loves to have you hide under his blanket with him. 

He loves to dance.

He loves movies.

He loves bath time.

He has a temper that has eased a little with time. 

He loves his cousin Bowen. He talks about him ALL THE TIME.

He also adores Aubrie. That is his play partner at Nadi's. 

He loves going to his grandparent's. No tears if you leave him there. There might be tears when you make him leave. 

He is my baby.

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Love Those Curve Balls ...

It is crazy how you can plan life as much as you want to, but it won't go as planned. 

I started dating Brandon at 15 and knew I would marry that man. At 17 I was engaged. I knew I would follow him to SHSU, graduate to become an 8th grade math teacher in my hometown & get married. Buy a home immediately. Try to have a baby after our one year anniversary, being due end of May. Perfect timing for a teacher, right? 

Every piece of the puzzle was coming together, due May 29th with baby number 1! Get ready for the curve ball. 

We head on October 6th to our first ultrasound and SURPRISE! We conceived spontaneous identical twins! I was shocked. Somewhat mad. Why did my friends get to have one baby? Why did I have to be the one who was different? Why did I have to have the high risk pregnancy? It took me nearly 2 weeks to realize I was in love with having twins! This curve ball made me realize His plan is much better than mine! 

We welcomed our twins after a high risk pregnancy that was anything but normal in April 2011. I had always dreamed I would have a 3 year age gap between my kiddos! So maybe when they were 2 we would try for another baby! Praying for a baby girl to make memories with as a mother & daughter. 

Get ready for another curve ball. 

When the twins were 15 months old I found out I was pregnant! Yep, didn't expect that! We were absolutely ecstatic to welcome another baby, and I prayers for a little girl! I just knew this cheerleader would be blessed with a daughter! 

Nope. As God would have it, I was blessed with another precious baby boy. I never could've dreamed how much he would complete me. Boy do I love having a third boy and watching him with his brothers! He is my baby, now and forever! Love that curve ball & boy do I love His plan for my life!

Had you asked me 5 years ago if I wanted identical twins & 3 boys I would have said no. It breaks my heart. I'm so in love with raising these three boys! I would've missed out on an incredible life! 

Then at the end of my 5th year of teaching in my hometown I made a gut wrenching decision to leave. Hardest decision I've made in my entire life. A curve ball I never expected. I thought I would retire from there in 30 years! 

Since making this decision, this would affect our finances. This caused me to reach out to a wrap girl I knew from Instagram! 

Get ready for a curve ball. 

I joined ItWorks with a goal of $500 to help pay childcare. Any amount of money would absolutely rock! A family of 5 is anything but cheap! We made it, we had money for anything our children needed & most of what they wanted! I researched a Disney vacation and quickly realized how hard this would be for our family! So maybe this wrap thing could help with that too one day?! 

4 months after joining I was averaging $10,000 a month as a Triple Diamond. Shock is an understatement. I could've never dreamed this would be our lives.

Get ready for that curve ball. 

6 months after joining I no longer needed to pay for childcare because I quit teaching. This decision wasn't made lightly, but I knew it was the right decision for me! I am now a stay at home mom and working my business from home! 

I am now earning a $100,000 bonus & hitting Presidential Diamond in 9 months. 

I am able to pay bills, save, give back, & have less stress in my life. I am able to help others become healthier! It is so rewarding to see your customers love their body again! I am able to lead a team  and help them earn an extra income! I want to help more momma's be home with their babies! Help stay at home momma's find themselves again if they can't remember anything except being mom! I want to help anyone to find financial freedom! 

Not everyone sees my vision. That is okay! I don't need anyone else to see my vision, except me. I have my eye on Ambassador by my one year. I want to be in the Top 100 income earners this year! I am willing to put in the work & continue to love on my team. I want to help them change their lives as much as I want to change my own! 

These curve balls ended up being life changing moments that have forever changed me. I must say, His plan is so much better than mine ever was in my dreams!